I've long since abandoned this blog, 3+ years now since my last post, but I find it interesting to look back, and thus I won't be deleting it. I still sort of wish I had my old Xanga and other short lived blogging ventures intact, so I could see what was going through my mind back then.

Not much has changed. I'm still searching for something. Even now as I find myself in the most stable situation professionally that I've ever been in, I find myself wanting to run away, wanting to do something crazy, wanting to break free from the bs and the financial things that lock me into this lifestyle.

Who knows, maybe this feeling will take hold for once. I've gotten excited as of late about working to pay down my debts. The idea of not owing anyone anything is pretty cool. Actually, it seems so foreign that its scary.

I mean really, why do I get up and go to work 5 out of 7 days of the week and do the song and dance? Well, I went to college so I could get a good job, right? Well now I really only find myself working to pay for the education I just got. I wish I had thought about all this sooner. I'm going to turn 26 in August. I feel trapped by my 30s. If I'm aggressive, I can pay all but my federal loans off by June 2012. That's another year of my life.

Today, I've been borderline obsessed with researching all kinds of world travel. How to move around the world with no money, etc. This on the heels of trying to plan to completely pay down my debts.

Who knows, maybe I will resurrect this blog. 365 days abroad - Jan 1, 2013, start my trip, flying out somewhere, not knowing where i'll go next. Leave with $5k to my name and hope that's enough?

Or I could give up on it again.